I get my wish. Is it going to be easy? Not as easy as I thought. You are a different person. I'm not sure if I understand who you are or what you have become. Its strange to me how close we are but how close we are not. I don't understand...but I don't need to.
I'm a beautiful woman. You are handsome man. What kind of sick joke is this that we aren't attracted to each other? Something is not right. We fullfill each others needs except for the physical. We must go outside for satisfaction. Odd. Strange. I sit here scratching my head, what is wrong with us?
I'm so close to you. Closer to you than anyone else. Except you can't fulfill my one need nor do you need to. Is it fair to the them...the others to have a relationship with you this strong? I don't know if it is fair to me, you, or them but I will leave it as is. I will take this one day at a time....sometimes one hour at a time. Maybe we will grow up. Maybe we will see where this went wrong. Maybe this is something I don't have an explanation for.
In 5 months I doubt you will call. In 5 months this won't even matter. In 5 months I will laugh at myself, pick up the pieces, and move on.
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